Hello Monsters 💖
My name is Venus (yes, really), I am close to turning 19 by now, I am originally from El Paso, Texas where I grew most of my life alongside Ciudad Juárez in Mexico. I was 8 years old when I first found out about Lady Gaga, and since then been totally obsessed and have been following Gaga since.
When I was 16 I got in a big fight with my mother and I ended up getting kicked out. I had nothing with me, all my clothes , my belongings, everything was left behind. Some Random person that I didn’t know and had just been speaking online with decided to help me. I thought I had nothing else to loose so I took the chance. The day after I got kicked out he drove from Odessa Texas to El Paso (it’s about a 4 hour drive) and picked me up with his other roommates, I left to Odessa and started a new life. I was working at a McDonald’s to pay rent and going to High school at the same time... Everything was working out fine for me, until around 10 months later when I got in an argument with my roommates about the rent and I had lost my job... so me and my best friend were just left behind like nothing.
When that happened there was no school. It was during the week of spring break. Me and my best friend left to South Padre Island to enjoy the beach and the spring parties with our Friend Cyann. When we headed back to Odessa, I had nowhere to go, I didn’t know a lot of people there, all of my family was miles away, my friend left the city and went back to his mom’s place and I was completely alone, homeless, sad, hungry. I spent a couple weeks in the street with no food, just walking around in 100 degree weather, and, the only thing that distracted my mind was Gaga’s Music. I would break in my old apartment, through a window, to charge my phone and shower in the middle of the night.
After a couple weeks, a friend of mine offered me a room in a hotel he worked for. I stayed there for around a week, after that he bought me a bus ticket to go back to my hometown. So I left. When I arrived I had nowhere to go, I was staying in a park downtown alone for like a month and a half, now I was homeless and I was tired of it. One night I was thinking and I was devastated, I wanted to end everything, I saw an abandoned/burned building and I went to the top, I was sitting on the edge, crying, my mind was set. Sooner or later I was gonna let go and jump from the edge, I was just playing music on my phone, and I remember having downloaded Gaga’s unreleased song “Princess Die”.
Right when I was gonna jump, the song played, and for some reason it got me to the Core, I saw my life in a second, I had my family in my mind, my siblings, and I realized I wasn’t ready to let go of them.
Gaga truly saved my life! Even with an unreleased song she touched my heart.
After that my mindset was Different. I Couldn’t believe I was that close to ending my life. A fire sparked inside of me and I decided I wanted to end it but in a better way. I decided to pursue my dreams. I always admired Gaga for her fashion, her makeup, her art. And I kept that in mind the whole time.
I had been homeless for around two months by now, and I had gotten money to fly out of Texas and go to Miami.
I wanted to go there because, I wanted to start doing Drag, create a persona with no issues, happy, perfect, fun , someone who would make me forget all my issues and leave the past behind.
Things didn’t exactly work out for me and a “friend” I went to Miami with, this “friend” and they abandoned me as soon as we arrived, I was on the street while he left with a sugar daddy he had found...
After a couple weeks the guy dumped him so he came back to me, we would be asking for money in south beach to pay for a Night at a hostel.
I would spend most of my days in the beach enjoying the water, the sun, relaxing. We were in Miami for like a month, me and my friend both didn’t like it there, it was nice and everything but I didn’t feel at home. We planned on asking for money on the streets, After a few days, we got enough for a plane to New York (we had agreed on that).
The next morning, my plane left first to New York. When I was at the airport waiting for my “friend” to arrive, he messaged me sayin he was going to Philly, and that I should go with him to pick up the rest of his belongings. I had 30 dollars in me and that was good for a bus to philly.
When I arrived and met up with him, he told me he wasn’t going to New York, and that he wasn’t gonna help me in philly, cause he was not gonna bring me into his apartment. It was close to midnight and I started getting lots of messages on my phone. I had random people messaging me cause my “friend” was offering me on Grindr, he was sending pictures of mine and my phone number to other people, telling them to let me stay with them and I will be giving them Sex.
This was wrong and first of all I was 17 at this time. I got in a big argument with him right outside of his place he left me...
One of his roommates saw what happened and he helped me, I told him I wanted to go to New York and he helped me get there. I had always dreamed about living in New York.
I arrived in the last few days of of July 2017. Then I met someone who offered me to stay at his place, no strings attached, he didn’t ask me for nothing, but truth is he was a Dealer, he lived with another guy who was also one. And pretty much just asked me not to touch anything, and everything would be cool.
After about like a month I got to a place where my life was Stable, I found a place that was great for me in Brooklyn and moved in, in the last few days of August.
First thing I did when I had finally moved in, was get ticket for Gaga’s concert at Citi Field on the 29th. It was raining, and the Concert could have not been more perfect!
It was the first time I had seen Gaga up close, I was mesmerized by her talent, her beauty, and the rain just made it better.
Now I am happily living in New York finished high school, now I am trying to enter the Fashion institute to follow my passion for Fashion and makeup, living as happy as I can be.
Now, every time that I listen to Gypsy (which has been my fave since forever,) I feel Gaga’s love, and it brings me joy. I feel like Gaga made that song specifically for me, because just like a Gypsy moving across the country I finally found my Home.
Since I moved to New York I’ve seen Gaga in concert, at her hotel the day of the Grammys this year, the day after the Grammys when she was heading to the Elton John salute (I got my first picture with her, and she signed my album).
It was amazing, when I was going home I couldn’t believe it I threw up out of excitement. And lastly saw her a few times, waiting for long times out of Electric Lady Studios. I got no pictures with her but I got to tell her how beautiful she looked and she thanked me.
Now I live happy and I am proud of myself, at my age I’ve experienced things people don’t ever experience, and I am able to say I can live in New York, and that I got out of being homeless on my own. New York is really the city of dreams! And my dream is lady Gaga, every time she motivated me, she pushed me to keep moving forward and for that I am truly thankful. I love you Gaga 💖 thank you.
That’s my story monsters. Paws Up!
p.s. You guys can follow me on Instagram: @Venushartt Twitter: @itsjustVenus And Snapchat: @Venushartt
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